Monday, March 3, 2014

Nothing that money can buy

I don't remember what I was going to write about doesn't matter really...something happened that made me change my mind. I came home tonight expecting a package, but received something infinitely better. It may sound silly, because the envelope I received is not about me, but it is. Make sense? Yeah, me either.

Today, I received paperwork to provide an adoption reference for a woman (and her husband) who I've known practically longer than anyone. Well, anyone I'm not related to. I knew it was coming, I just didn't know how good I'd feel when it did. Here's the thing, I turned 40 this year and I got everything I ever wanted. And this is one more example of what a wonderful and fortunate life I have. Ok, seriously, I don't want to make their adoption process about me, but this is my blog after all.

What do I mean when I say that receiving this paperwork is an example of my fortune? Well, it's simple really. I made a commitment 8 years ago to do the ongoing work of becoming the person I want to be. When I started this journey, I didn't know what that looked like. All I could think of was that I wanted to be like D. She has always been there for me, someone I could count on. I wanted to be like that. I didn't really know how to do it though and knew that it wouldn't happen overnight. Some days, I wondered if it would ever happen. Some days, I thought that none of my friends would like me if they knew the crazy shit that ran through my head at times.

Somewhere along the way, I began to figure out who I wanted to be. I wanted to be the kind of person you'd call and ask to babysit your kids. Don't get me wrong, I don't actually want to babysit your kids, I just want to be a person who you ask. Soooooo, you see, getting this paperwork today confirms that the work I've done has all kept me moving in the right direction. I'm becoming the person that I want to be and I'm fortunate that others have noticed and value it too. Tonight, I'm full of gratitude that everything I've ever wanted is coming my way. I'm even more grateful that none of it is anything that money can buy.


Mmm, orange chicken
steak and broccoli


steak, corn, broccoli, and berries


fruit and oatmeal
savory chicken and veggies
salad, lots-o-veggies and steak


cereal and berries
turkey chili, veggies, and peaches


pasta fagioli and veggies
pizza and salad


cereal and berries
 BBQ chicken and veggies
cheese ravioli and veggies


oatmeal and fruit
pizza and salad


Simmons Women Potluck!!!!
Simmons Women Potluck!!!!


pasta fagioli, peaches, veggies
savory chicken, veggies, berries and salad
(the salad gets eaten tomorrow though...)


BBQ chicken, veggies and berries


calzone and yesterday's salad
 jalapeno and tuna
 Mmmmm sashimi
 Mmmm, salmon and soft shell crab
white tiger roll


cereal and fruit
 savory chicken, veggies and peaches
pasta fagioli and broccoli


cereal and fruit

cheese ravioli, veggies and peaches
giant salad
Mmmm pizza!

I made a commitment that this would be my last pizza until St. Patty's weekend at the earliest...


salad and chicken wings
 burger and fries
veggies and rice


ham sammy, tabouleh, pasta, pears, cookies!
(there were 5 cookies in all)
corn, broccoli, pasta with chicken and broccoli


cereal and fruit
BBQ chicken, veggies and winter squash

I had veggies and rice for dinner