Thursday, September 4, 2014

Nothing's wrong

Hmmm, what to write about today...I wish I had some grand inspirational topic, but I'm not feeling so hot today. Yeah, physically, I feel fine. Mentally and emotionally, I'm a wreck. It sucks. Everything is going well, nothing's wrong. In fact, things are wonderful. So what's going on?

I want to blame hormones. That would be convenient. Unfortunately, that's not it. No, this is me, my personality, my wants, my desires, my fears. I'm not getting what I want and I don't feel in control. Ahhh, there it is. I'm powerless. Time to let go...Recognize that I can't always get what I want. Make a choice to either be satisfied with what I have, or just let go. Trust that I'll get what I need.

Can I do that? Can I trust that I'll get what I need? It's not always easy. But 'not easy' is what I do best. Give me a challenge and I'll rise to meet it. Not only will I rise to meet it, but I'll slaughter it! That's right. So, then, how to get out of this funk? I'll start by finding my gratitude. I'll get rest. I'll get exercise. I'll spend time with Ella. I'll look forward to the fun trips that are in my near future. I'll get out of my own way by doing service for others...

For tonight, I'll focus on gratitude and rest. Rest and gratitude.

 8/31/14

berries, yogurt, and mango with chilis
 salad with falafel
chicken stir fry with rice








9/1/14

Labor Day feast of burgers, grain salad, and veggie salad






 9/2/14

sushi
pizza and salad








 9/3/14

savory chicken, mixed veggies, berries
Mmmm, Thai Curry with cauliflower, red pepper, and pineapple








 9/4/14
cheese ravioli, mixed veggies, peach
creole chicken, carrots, pineapple, snow peas, and zuccini